It is still the same after so many years. Looking back, it has been 5 long years since it happened. I am not sure exactly when it did, but I am very sure it did.
How do I know?
Because I am the only one in it.
The furthest distance from you is when I am standing next to you. The furthest one so far was when I was standing next to you at the airport. Really.
Years back, I scroll for your name on that list of MSN of mine. Even till now, I am still scrolling for your name on that long list of MSN on mine. I am not sure either, but it is always such a mixed emotion when I see you online. One of desire and disgust.
I feel like one side of a pair of chopstick, always a pair, but never together. So oriental. We are.
But. I think for the good of all of us, it is really time to move on.
Now that a new chapter is beginning, or at least I hope it is. I can't belive I did this but, all I did was smile.
I hope the sun raises from this dawn this time.
[this is good] Been there, done that. I know how it feels. It's a good way to start the new beginning with a smile :)
Posted by: Connie | May 02, 2008 at 00:21